by Coagvla » Sun Feb 03, 2013 5:26 pm
93 Brother,
I bet I can beat yr middle of nowhere, I live in the Northern Territory of Australia, and I can relate to the idea of isolation and really needing a teacher. They say the when the student is ready the master will come, I personally, in my frustration, have railed against this statement and claimed it a profound stream of bullshit, but to be honest the Voice tells me it is quite true. I am fortunate enough now to be in touch with a person who will take me on as a Probationer, however they are on the other side of the world. I can look at this as an unfair and an insurmountable hurdle, or thank mine Angel not only for providing the teacher but also creating a circumstance where my initiation will involve hard work and sacrifice, and thereby be even more meaningful.
An answer for myself in a case of severe dryness was getting rid of Magick altogether. I was in a shitty place and unsure what to do with the next part of my life, and I found psychology, I threw myself into it, saw a Psych, enrolled in uni and completely renounced the path and began to look at the things I called the path in a Psych way. Why was i into the occult who am I really, why have I followed a drug addled poet so devotedly for do many years etc. Magick and mysticism began to creep back in of course, and psychology became an important part of who I am and an invaluable tool to help me attain dissolution in the divine. I think what I'm trying to say is that, for me, I made Magick and Thelema prove themselves to me, which the did unequivocally.
Also pod casts like Speech in the Silence (particularly the Living Thelema segment) go along way in helping with the isolation and forums like this (particularly this one on which there is an amazing calibre of people) can help heaps with new ideas and lines of thought/enquiry. It's only the last couple of months that I've been using the net for Magick as I always sorta looked down it (mainly cause I didn't understand it) but despite the numerous dingbats there is some real gold.
Sorry if this has become rambling. Remember also, it will work itself out, always. The night will end with the coming of the Golden Dawn.
Fraternally yours,
Luke
30 6 20 5 = 61
30 + 6 = 36 20 + 5 = 25
6squared + 5squared = 61
Hexagram + Pentagram = Ain
Abrahadabra
PS Hand on heart, I just saw that. This is the perfect example of what I was saying about the net and forums like this. I posted a question about week or so ago asking people's thoughts on a Hebrew letter I could use for the e in Luke, something I've always struggled with, and Jim suggested He. And in writing this reply I have discovered that I am the next Perfect Master sent to guide the human race (joke).
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Coagvla on Sun Feb 03, 2013 5:40 pm, edited 1 time in total.