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Postby Malaclypse » Thu Mar 15, 2007 2:49 pm

I had an intense experience a while ago that can best be compared to dropping MDMA. Not that I've ever done that (honestly!) but it sure felt like something emptied my entire supply of serotonin and let it flow through my brain. Intense happiness and irresistible laughter, so much joy I thought I was going to burst open and some golden liquid pour out of me or something to that effect to give it an allegorical description.
This was triggered by a session of healing without anything more than intense praying on my part and the healer's intervention. Also, I had held lots of emotions back for a few years and so something like an emotional knot could very likely have been untied (almost positively). It went on for app. 20-30 minutes with the most intense effects at about 15 minutes.
But the untying-of-emotion idea doesn't seem to cover it. It was just too damn intense. The only thing I can think of with my limited knowledge (still!) is something that has to do with my HGA. I can hardly believe that I am anywhere near a close encounter with my HGA, but I did pray to Christ, which seems to be the same thing since both are situated in Tiphareth, so if the relation is correct then what would ye learned ones say about this?
It was by far the most intense burst of emotions in my life and the fact that it felt like too much to keep inside me, as if I was on the verge of bursting, made me remember reading "Magick in Theory and Practice", where Crowley states somewhere that when the K&C with the HGA commences it will for one thing be just that: hard to contain for the mind. I wonder if it's the same kind of bursting feeling he is talking about and also what other levels of communication are connected with the HGA(/Christ?).

If more information is needed I can also add that my life seems to be on track in the direction I've wanted it to but didn't find the power/inspiration/motivation to walk until some time after this occurred, but I'm not entirely sure it should be ascribed to this. I can't think of anything more useful than that.

Thanks in advance!
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Postby DavidH » Thu Mar 15, 2007 3:09 pm

Well Brother, I have no clue as to what it was (well I do, but not sure enough to comment), but in any event it sounds rather positive so Congratulations! Sounds like things are moving forward for you. Pull out your pen and diary!
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Postby Chris Hanlon » Thu Mar 15, 2007 6:41 pm

Yes. A gift from the Universe. We all rejoice for you.
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Postby Malaclypse » Thu Mar 15, 2007 8:10 pm

Oh, thank you very much, guys! :-)
Yes, I am definitely grateful for it happening, just not really getting it, I think. Since it was pure happiness without any inclination to any specific reason I could hint at neither during nor after the experience my guess is rather Tipharethic than Netzachic, at least.
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Postby Al-Shariyf » Sat Mar 17, 2007 8:03 am

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I had a similar experience about 4 years ago. A friend of mine and I were hanging out in his dorm room and we were having one of those long, marijuana induced, metaphysical college conversations when suddenly I felt a rush a warm energy, entering through the soles of my feet, travelling all the way up my body and out of the crown of my head. This was followed by the intense happiness and laughter you described Mal. I would say it lasted for about 5-7 minutes. I never knew what this experience meant but it was damn good. I've smoked PLENTY of weed since then and I never experienced it again so I doubt it had something to do with the chronic. I gotta admit, it's interesting to hear someone else having a similar experience. Definitely throw that experience in your journal.

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Postby Malaclypse » Sat Mar 17, 2007 8:10 am

Hehe, thanks for the tip! I hope it was something like this you experienced too. :)
But I should perhaps make it clear that I had been drug free for over a month when this happened so it had nothing to do with drugs (other than slight touches of nicotine or theobromine perhaps).
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Postby Malaclypse » Sat Mar 17, 2007 1:18 pm

Pweeease Jim, can't you (or anyone else who probably has a more enlightened theory about this than me) answer this one with a bit of theorizing? :-/
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Postby Elkeid » Tue Mar 20, 2007 9:31 pm

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Oh yes, that giddiness that has nothing to do with response to amusement; I see it as a different kind of laughter, practically uncontrollable and somewhat related to a form of madness. How I’ve understood it so far is a type of coping mechanism when the center is moving-even a process of persona suicide, which in Jungian terms they call egocide (a very positive thing to do). You know you are advancing from this since for if you didn’t emit that energy it would just turn into something less pure. Unlike other laughter and joy, I don’t think it is a response to anything that came in externally per se; it is spiritual pleasure and an inkling of what can really be obtained as a state of being (but not to say,an end result); after all it’s part of shedding something that has served its purpose; and doing it in one of the best ways possible.

It is what some of the Christian holly-rollers are attempting to do at some of their revivals; all it takes is one person to be “drunk with the holy ghost”-for it to be a chain reaction of giddy orgasmic laughter. In these cases I’ve noticed it can be pretty much psycho-somatic; but I still feel there is something in it at times, at least for some people. Either way I see no harm in it, really. But when it’s a personal occurrence that visits you without any warning, definitely keep track of these because too many could be just as bad as none at all.

Herman Hesse’s Steppenwolf tries to describe the process, since I don’t think it can really be defined; which is good, a definition would just limit our understanding of it.
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Postby Malaclypse » Tue Mar 20, 2007 10:36 pm

Thanks a million Elkeid! Excellent clarification! :)

I think I agree with you on all points. This influence was very well timed in combination with a lot of other things happening as well; you could say it's been like a "soular college camp" for me lately. =)
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