(On a "day off" for these, I'm catching up posting diary entries that I didn't get added to these threads over the summer.)
What I have received from this today:
The essence of this particular practice is simply the continuing awareness of, and abiding within, the interminable Love of the Holy Guardian Angel.
I am quite keen not to make these remarks an intellectual elaboration, but they are aimed at more than just my diary - so, I find, I need to establish a few concepts just so there is a common language.
38. Across the waveless sea of eternity Thou didst ride with Thy captains and Thy hosts; with Thy chariots and horsemen and spearmen didst Thou travel through the blue.
Yesterday's verses climaxed with the approach, the arrival of the Holy Guardian Angel. This arrival is not to the Master but, rather, to the Adept. In this verse, the Angel is travelling "through the blue," i.e.,
Air, Ruach, the field of ego and reason (blue disk tattwa). The Angel's arrival is across "the waveless sea of eternity," i.e.,
the still, silent, immortal sea of Binah, Neshamah - but the arrival (following the opening of the portal of the Abyss in the prior verse, allowing this penetrating) is into the Adept's mortal mind, "the blue."
The chief characteristic of this part of mind is division
The Angel appears accompanied by "captains and... hosts," i.e.,
various thoughts and other repercussions in the conscious mind, a range of thoughts all arising in response to the vibrations set in motion by the impact of the Angel's presence on the mortal psyche.
It was on these that I remained mindful one and off throughout the day as my living meditation. - The way in which thoughts arising in my mind are consequences of the impact of the Angel's presence.
39. Before I saw Thee Thou wast already with me;
A fairly common phenomenon. The Angel is always
with the Adept and, even with the aspirant, is that Light "which has gone ever before you even when you knew it not." This phrase is simply recording a familiar fait accompli.
41. O my Lord, let us sail upon the sea of blood!
And here was the other line that caught and held my attention throughout the day. It's rather difficult for me to write about it because it depicts personal experiences reaching over many years for which there isn't necessarily ordinary language.
The Angel has penetrated into the mortal, human (albeit prepared and even familiar) areas of the Adept's psyche. This is not a description of the Adept being lifted into the Supernal realm, I think, but rather of the Angel's penetration, for union, into the Yetziratic part of the Adept's mind and raising it to non-Supernal Briatic levels. (Please excuse all the words. I'm struggling a bit here.)
"The blood is the life." And yet this isn't transient life. It is the physical expression of continuous life. It touches on the mystery of where
in our bodies our consciousness abides, and of what constitutes incarnation. The answer is that our consciousness abides not just in the brain, or in the nerve tissue, etc., but in every
cell. What we are
is the life borne throughout our bodies with every beat of our hearts. Here, the union isn't metaphysical - it's physical
but it's far deeper than the level at which we usually experience ourselves abiding. The consciousness of the Adept (my
consciousnessness in my several meditations on this verse throughout the day) is united-but-adjacent-to (i.e.,
with) the Angel at the deep level where we are joined at the cellular level and moving smoothly, easily upon "the sea of blood" which is actual basis of my physical existence. In this companionship I abide in my recurring mindfulness of htis practice throughout the day.
[OBSCURE ASIDE: There is a great deal to contemplate in the last paragraph for those who have received formal instruction in the Hermetic, initiatic practice of alchemy - specificially in the way that, physically in the blood, sunlight is joined to that which has already been prepared by the fusion of Yod and Zayin.