Starry Soul wrote:
Well, it is
obvious. That's the point.
In any case, as a Master of the Temple (or one in the making), you see my "contempt" (or whatever it is) as an instrument of your delight. So, "to hell with [you]"!
You know that "enlightened etiquette" doesn't really imply that you're enlightened, and no one is going think that a certain individual is enlightened because they respond to people in a certain way on an Internet forum (unless of course, that actually happens)
Anyways, what follows is really just for me:
What I meant earlier by the "SO OBVIOUS", is really just a form of "begging the question", or the "appeal to the obvious", which in fact may not be obvious, but really, nebulous
And in effect, my own "Abyss crossing", happened like this:
It spontaneously initiated itself at the age of 15 for me, prior to this "event", I had been doing no spiritual practices, nor any meditation, nor was I involved with any religion (to a great degree, I was somewhat a fan of Buddhism)
Some sort of roller coaster started, and a bunch of events in my life conspired together to create this coasting or "avalanche" effect, wherein everything fell together, this went on for only a few brief months
If I recall correctly it was around Oct-Nov of the the previous year, to around May of the next year, so perhaps six months in total
At the end of the process, wherein I had "failed" to cross, it was only then that I had become aware of the enormity of the "thing" I had failed to do, which, I didn't know was happening at the time
In some sense, perhaps it was "my" desire to "hijack" the process that didn't let it follow through
Prior to the event there was a slow, but steady trepidation that crept up to the "avalanche", it was somewhat of an intimation, or suspense, that something big was going to happen, finally it initiated itself, although in some senses I helped it and created the drama, I couldn't "hold water anymore" (that is how I described it to some people)
Eventually, "I" died, somehow, inexplicably, and have been residing in some sort of wasteland ever since
The events that surrounded the "initiation" were "incidental", "consciously" ("at the time"), they were what I complained about
The crossing itself, also incidental!
Prior to the "thing happening", almost zero spiritual practice, I did do a few sits of Vipassana on my own, but these sits were around 10 minutes each time, and there were no more than 5 serious ones
"During the thing", if that can even be said, almost no spiritual practice, but was assiduously involved in reading Chinese astrology (Sizhu Bazi)
And only afterwards, did I become aware that I had failed in something that I wasn't even consciously doing!
So I attempted to pick up the pieces